Love aint shit but a word, which is until we give it meaning. My mind defines love as a verb. More specifically it is a word that can not be a noun, without first being a verb. Anyone physically capable of walking can run, but no one can run without running. Like wise, anyone capable of showing compassion, can Love, but no one can love before loving. Which is why for example, we say “Show your love for…” It is through illustration only, that the word love can be defined. In essence, you can verbalize that you love me, but if your actions say otherwise, why should I believe you? I can only trust that you love me, when you actually do(show me).

Trust is synonymous with confidence. And like love, I believe that trust can not be a noun without first being a verb. Our level of trust is exemplified by how vulnerable we allow ourselves to be with one another. If that trust is violated, one can only question the violators love because his/her actions conflict with their verbal expression. My mind is telling me that during the act of violating, loving is only love. So, is a bond word or actions? Some like to believe both words are interchangeable. Oftentimes, once trust is lost, the loving begins to deplete. I’d like to believe that true love continues to prevail even when the trust is lost. After all, isn’t love unconditional? *scratches head*

Hmmm… Prime example: I love my dad, though I haven’t told him so in almost seven years, I’m [almost] confident that I do. I no longer hold animosity in my heart or mind for him, I’ve been clean off of that for almost 2 years. Our relationship is still and will always be in a stage of rehabilitation but at least we actually have a relationship now. It is a relationship dependent on the sincerity of words and actions. I love him, but do I trust him? NO. Will I ever trust him with my emotions again? Possibly.

Love – Trust = Possibility.

A possibility is risk, an option, an alternative, a decision. Love minus trust is only a possibility. Is this why, ‘they sayers’ believe that love is a choice? That we choice who we do and who we don’t love? I disagree. We can’t chose who we love anymore than we can control who we have feelings for. We can only control what we do with those feelings. Loving comes naturally and trust is a reaction to the reciprocation of loving.

I wish that I could trust everyone that I loved.